Tuesday, November 27, 2018


24th of November
Listening all day long an amateur recording
Of Leaves of Grass
Female, matured voice
Serene, kind and motherly
Reading for nineteen hours straight
Words enshrouding young bodies
Stout, handsome soldiers, forsaken
Left behind at the battlefields of yore
The Maccabees of Alamo
Old honorable Quakers
Patriarchs with their herds, radiating vitality
Tanned bearded men of twenty-seven
Swimming in ponds
Like Solomons of old
With scented garments
Infusing their bodies with perfumes
With sandalwood, and ointments
And myrrh and hyssop
Old Testament men
Brave, tall, hearty, handsome
Smelling like Esau the hunter
The fragrance of the fields, and grass and dew
Like Gedeons of old
Men who fascinated God and angels
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These songs, Roman collects of youth
And sunshine, and laughter
And wilderness
Glassy fragments of dusks and dawns
Fine faces, drops, bellies, curled chest-hair, loins
the laughter of young friends
Preserved on  ancient wax cylinders
From centuries ago
Crackling, distorted
Ripe with Purgatories of
 Murmuring, interfering spirits
Entrapped ghosts speaking with an echo-
Lovers, long dead
Enfolded in soil, mute, separated now
In recesses of the earth
Delivered to God's final judgment
Living in truth  at last
The soil so full of useless memory
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Faces of ancestors-warriors,
Healing me from my shame,
Teaching me to accept my body
Speaking softly but firmly
With their hundred years old oak-voices
Lale and Drekale
Noahs and Abrahams of old wars
Blessed by Melchidesedeks the patriarchs
John of Peć, hieromartyr
And Ruvim, Cherub of Montenegro, anointing
Near the stream
Savage brave, wild wild wild men
Archbishop and High-priest
Ancestors in Morača, attending councils
Among prophets and angels with firm faces
Attendants infused with the strong aroma of incense and lambskin
Men with sabers invigorated in blood and fire, battling near Dečani
Where the king of the old days lays intact, fragrant
waiting to burst up from his Marble grave with fiery sparks
(This is my version of Milco Mancevski's The Dust)
Their tales of battles and catastrophes
In old photographs, pale and stern Ahabs
With that expression on their faces -
As if they managed to see through all these centuries
To return my glance
Aghast by this new vision,
Frozen forever in this all-encompassing stare
Or maybe - as if the very photographs suffered
A certain change after their death
Giving them this new perspective
The long lingering surprise
The great ahhhhhhhhhh
Like the last breath of a hermit seeing
Stirred honeycombs of angels and righteous-ones
The New Jerusalem
Unfathomable, white, consuming
In a minute, frozen revelation
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Grass scent, wine scent
Old kings and heroes
Robust
The strong-bodied forefathers
With their abiding vitality
The wine cups and strong thighs of forefathers
Pregnant with nations and cities
With kings to be and poets
Their tents in green pastures
Their herds with strong limbs and muscles
Something of it still beating in my worn-out body
Their sensuality and strength in me also
(for I never denied myself anything,
Never learned to submit to puritan rigidity
To want something but not to have it
By a pure act of the will
Due to some moral firmness
And rigor,
To comply with strong principles,
I, very sensual,
Permanently in love
Ready to go to the very bottom
Tender, loving, drunk, celibate)
The laughter of ancestors encircling the hearth
As if infusing the fire with a better life
Singers of tales with their Christmas fasts, vigils, and prayers
Semi-Christianized mores
Their pious ejaculations
Uttered  during hard labor and childbirth
Formed am I by these utterances also
There's something of it in me too
Of those ejaculations and songs
Something in me from the drops of their wine
Of their acceptance of life and strength
They, but wearied by history, in me
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The scented wine of psalms and hearty benedictions
Fair-bodied warriors and wise kings
And blind sages, an army with many and many spears
Enamored, enchanted by this
Kings leaping, dancing among their people
Babes suckling, singing lauds
Matrons and girls
And altars of the Lord most high
In pastures, in saturated fields
Winter with pale fires
Near Bethlehem
With Jesse and Samuel
And chosen champions of Israel
Conferring with each other
Old and wise
Deliberations of the seers and prophets
Overthrown rocks as altars
With burning offerings and libations to the Lord
Most High, upon the Armies
Angel, a strong one, with a staff
Producing a consuming fire
His face hidden under the hud
Just a firm jaw
speaking to Gedeon
In a quiet, manly voice
Voice of the one incapable to be surprised
By a manifold of events
Firm voice, but placid also
And David – able one
with a sword and spear and sling
A voice of a matriarch
Caressing Jacob her son on her lap
A pageant of events and frescos
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Walt Whitman, what is the most important thing about Christ?
_______  that He is beautiful.

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